Vulnerability in co-creating and manifesting a Dream and Vision within Honor and LOVE.
Vulnerability in co-creating and manifesting a Dream and Vision within Honor and LOVE.
Sunday, Sunday, Sunday…FULL MOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN”T WAIT….It is going to be an emotional and LOVE filled day…One that I have dreamed/visioned/prayed for since 1985 and then in 2007 when mom passed I prayed/dreamed and visioned even more with ALL the LOVE within me…Three unite for the first time in their lives…One 39, One 29 and One 28. This day IS like no other….for on this day only three can come together arm and arm. hand in hand. heart to heart. Each for One and to BE One in honor and healing within One. A womb of LOVE fed with hate created three carrying until a date. To most they carried upon their sleeves for ALL to see. Within a chest One carries what WILL lift…the bars and chains WILL transform into bliss. Began with One and continued in two. Then came three for One in ALL to BE FREE.
© Whisper of LOVE Daved Beck 1983-2013
I acknowledge the courage it takes to embrace within the willingness to transform patterns of fear. I acknowledge and am grateful to embrace free WILL within choice to either do or not do. I am grateful we ALL are here within this same place sending forth LOVE through time and space.
© Daved Beck Whisper of LOVE, 2013
If I were to not do what I have done….I would not remind….I would not look out for….I would not take upon myself what another may have forgotten, misplaced, or not done…I would not consider nor contemplate my actions of how they may or may not affect another. There have been countless times where I have not done what I did, to only find it has always been a challenging balancing act to do for me. While all this time it has been for the of LOVE you and me.
Did I enable fear or did I enable LOVE?
A lot of both, however I would say I mostly enabled LOVE. Well truly, that’s all I ever want to do and be done. That is all I ever want to feel……..to LOVE and to BE LOVED.
Sometimes I do feel it is “dammed if you do and a dammed if you don’t”.
As a young child how I experienced love and fear was
“I hit you because I love you.”
“This is what we do when we love each other.”
“If you tell anyone they’ll put mommy in jail.”
“Make me a drink because you love me.”
“If we say anything it would kill your aunt.”
“You don’t even know your son’s a faggot.”
“He rapped you because you had your ear pierced and he thought you were a faggot.”
“You used your own money to buy me this. This tells me you love me.”
“I love when you make me things with you own two hands.”
“you embarrass me when you dance in public.”
“nothing that comes out of your mouth makes any sense.”
“If you say where that bruise came from they will take you away.”
“Don’t look at yourself in the mirror, you’re ugly.”
“You don’t call or visit me any more…don’t you love me?”
“I don’t love you, you left me.”
“You left me, why would I love you.”
“If you love me than you forgive me”
“If you love me you’ll stay.”
Within these statements there are actions that taught me silently what love was and was not.
It has been my Soul/Spirit/Human life’s journey to uncover and transform the unseen fear that shake within.
I would say I have transformed a lot thus far with so much more to do.
These voices of Ancient Moons and Suns of times past linger with me day and day to remind me of ALL LOVE I can choose to BE.
To never ever ever treat anybody in hate is a vow I made that very day.
I do my best and I know I am not perfect for I am me and ALL that is within the unseen.
It has been my life quest to embrace LOVE in ALL that IS SEEN.
And that is ALL for today to do my best to breathe within the anxiety in which I see transforming LOVE of So mote IT BE.
The voice of past times three try to do their best in haunting. It’s a skill, a focus a determination to see through the veil of fear to rest within the heart of the matter and to create and embrace Peace.
I embrace I’ve done an okay job thus far.
I also forgive myself for the work that had not been done in what I have done.
© Daved Beck Whisper of LOVE, 2013
Today is the third…not the easiest of nor the hardest of yet ALL in ALL…Today is the third.
A day that is in some form a celebration within the vast of what is missing.
Within lack of kiss I am suppose to believe there is much more than this than there was that.
I travel through the past as I could not bare to experience One pack.
Today I see all that was left to embrace an energy of attack within the LOVE that somehow was left for me to untangle.
All alone resisting the energy to run out and mingle.
I loved you and loved you and loved you. To only learn it was to hard.
I worked so hard to “not” do what was done unto One oh so long ago. To come to a place and seem like damage was left in the none of all that was allowed to unfold in acceptance of One.
Be in the flow One whispers in that which lingers.
“You don’t deserve to live the good life” of mind feeling a burning way down deep inside. This is not me that speaks of thee in such a way for how could I have been “bad” that very day?!?
If ALL is good why does it hurt so bad?
Pushed away One in the ALL of none for there was really nothing to be undone.
For this was created in the sum of three in that which equals the One, that is me.
Always in threes is this theme of synchronicity. Why would I follow the signs when they sometimes lead me to cry?
As I embrace within ALL of me, if it where not for the signs I would not have been able to say on this very day….That I LOVE YOU just as I did that very day that is coming close that I use to “try” to celebrate.
I use to give my all until I began to witness within the experience of denies.
I was inspired to give in and give up when I seemed to give my all and that still was “not good enough.”
I began to see what was done unto me I began doing onto you, this burned so very much inside. I did my best to never get as far as One once did yet it still hurt none the less.
As much as I “tried” to not beat anybody up inside…my insecurities came out oh so subtly…
My quest many many moons and suns of long ago maybe even before I connected with you.
Was to never ever ever LOVE another in that way.
You may have or may have not experienced the experiences I have lived…God/Goddess for many of you I know you didn’t because you have expressed after even witnessing some abuse in which I faced…”How could you be so “normal” after ALL you have been through.” many have even express that I am weird and yes, the life in which I lived and the signs in the sky to some are “labeled/judged” in such away, for I know I still do even on this day of three.
I see the signs and visions have come to be in that I did foresee within ALL that I am unable to see.
There is always the unknown in the choice of OWN will.
I AM learning how to LOVE me as much as I can teach myself the right way for me.
I believe the same for he, she and thee as we see how things happen in threes.
So on this day that marks a day of experiences “seemed” misled.
I honor the years of LOVE carried through ALL of those years.
For what was LOVE to me may not be LOVE to thee yet I know somewhere deep down YOU did LOVE ME.
Now it’s time to LOVE me for as we walk on our separate journey’s.
I may not know ALL what the future holds for many…Or do I?!?!?
One fact for certain I embrace within such Sacred Grace.
This message One may feel is for One and Yes for he and she in the ALL of many.
For this comes from only my experience and I choose to honor integrity.
Never far apart for LOVE for and of you IS always carried within One Sacred Heart. We are family within our OWN Soul/Spirit/Human contract of LOVE that co-created this very day. I love you through the Suns and Moons co-creating So Mote BE in possibilities that come to BE.
©Daved beck Whisper of LOVE, 2013
The message is for He, She, Me and maybe even Thee. If the whisper of Integrity touches One’s very OWN heart, then you know what to do. If anger arise, I will no longer compromise. Lies disguise, Ancient Moon and Suns taught me to recognize the chains around One’s very OWN heart. Words that speak true with moves of grace and ease, I called forth from this day forth. LOVE is always welcome through my door for this is ALL of what we ARE. Embrace or not, fear WILL not put me in knots.
Maybe three times.
There will be no fourth.
Love is all I want to BE, for this is ALL I choose to know.
As I know I want, I know there is lack and this is what I move forward to co-create.
How One chooses may not be like another and that’s okay. Even though WE ALL want and search for the same.
He came and went.
She came and went.
This gave me permission that you believe ‘it’s okay’ to move.
I LOVED YOU then…I LOVE YOU now….
I will continue to LOVE for this is what has already been bestow.
Never a mistake, what is to take when we have our heart that brought US to the very day.
© Daved Beck, Whisper of LOVE 2013
If I were to follow the instructions of teacher’s past and sound it out. The sound within comes out as luz…….If I follow the beliefs of teacher’s past and even in the present the spelling is lose. Who wins? What’s to gain in the separation of inflections?
If I were to follow the instructions of sounding it out it…the sound that comes from within is lus…If I follow the beliefs the spelling would be loose. Where are we tight? What happens if we loosen up? Then we judge that we are lus!
How do we determine what is right and what is wrong for ourselves when we are so busy determining for others?
All of us! Each and every single person on this planet and maybe even the planets out there are One Being! I see each of us and everything as nothing less than LOVE.
I believe we each came here to give and receive LOVE!
We weren’t put on this planet alone! I am not the only person here on this planet! And this life I live is definitely “not all about me,”
While simultaneously each of us are One person in our OWN lives.
Each life IS ALL about YOU!
His life is ALL about HIM!
Her life is ALL about HER!
My life is ALL about ME!
Together and apart LIFE IS ALL about US!
For WE ARE IN LOVE!!!
To move through what sounds and looks One way, is to feel someway.
How does LOVE feel?
What does LOVE see?
What does LOVE think?
Is LOVE slamming of doors?
Is LOVE calling someone a name that to many would be considered/judged “in vain”?
Is LOVE sitting in silence not speaking up?
Is LOVE screaming so load the neighbors next door are able to hear?
Is LOVE throwing something at the wall to get someone to silence?
Is LOVE driving someone to and fro?
Is LOVE allowing someone to drive you to and fro?
Is LOVE to be so tight that something may get cut off?I
s LOVE agreeing to do something and to only find that it hasn’t been done?
Is LOVE agreeing to do something even when you don’t want to?
Is LOVE agreeing to disagree?
Is LOVE sending an email to gain clarity and ask questions?
Is LOVE not replying to an email or telephone call?
Is LOVE asking to be held?
Is LOVE waiting to be held?
Is LOVE making the first move and giving a kiss?
Is LOVE saying no to having sex?
Is LOVE disagreeing to find you now agree?
We ARE NOT LOST!
He is not lost. She is not lost!
YOU and I are definitely not lost!!!
WE ARE HERE!!!
Right here, together…
Do you see yourself as LOVE?
LOVE IS ALL around though Soul/Spirit/Human in One.
Who and what is not LOVE?. Begin there……decide for yourself…..what is not of LOVE?
Only One decides what One’s meaning of LOVE IS that come from within. I wonder in the knowing and belief that our definitions of LOVE align. For we are already United within the experience of You and I. We already know what LOVE is not!!!
So what other choice do we have but to BE what we believe LOVE to BE.
Become aware of LOVE by the inflection of reflection and ALL becomes so crystal clear.
I have loved you through the moons and suns in which we have co-created together! And I WILL continue to LOVE YOU through the moons and suns co-creating LOVE, So mote it BE through eternity. I LOVE YOU in I Thank you for this very day.
© Daved Beck, Whisper of LOVE 2013
I did really good not breaking the bowl for this long but the vision still manifested this morning as I was unloading the dishwasher…Yes, it’s just a bowl and UGH, what’s the point of being able to see events before they happen to possibly make other choices to have them not happen and the experience still happens? Now I wonder what’s next? Meaning, I saw this experience ahead of time for a reason and when I find a vision manifests the next events are triggered. When I had the vision of this bowl breaking in it, I dropped it…Well I didn’t drop it a pan landed on it. So it did not manifest as exact because of course after having this vision of me dropping it I became even more careful and “overprotective” when moving this bowl around.
When I have visions and I recognize the signs/symbols manifesting it fascinates me. Who wouldn’t be fascinated by being able to foresee events?!?!?! We all have at some point or another in our lives.
For example the other day when I was blessed with embracing an opportunity of being a background extra for a TV show for a second time.
When I embraced the opportunity of filming a few weeks ago, I “saw” that I would be filming something in a bar, well that wasn’t the case, I was outside looking at a building, so I just let it go and forgot about it.
Well the other day I received a call to film a scene and they said I would be a bar patron, I immediately was excited because that meant my vision was manifesting and then that means I truly am Psychic… Yes, I do doubt myself as a psychic…I really don’t like to say I can “predict” because of FREE will and choices and events that take place outside of us. Yet truth and fact is…… I have in the past predicted events happening in others lives.
And when it comes to foreseeing events in my own life, well there are levels that I believe include living a self-fulfilled prophecy. Being we are the co-creators and manifestos of our own life. “If you can see it you can achieve it.”
So here I am driving and I arrive to the location exactly like what I had foreseen. Even when I met my fellow co-extras, I recognized them but had never met them before. Again I was fascinated in wonderment because I had no idea what was next.
Then I saw this man, a crew member who I noticed on the first shoot because well…He is cute! cute! cute for One and I had a hunch I knew what his name was.
Well I found myself on this second shoot staring, I could not take my eyes off of him. I even knew what I was doing and how creepy it all seemed and I could not take my eyes off of him. Our eyes even caught each others….At least I think they did.
Well as he was standing I could see his name on his walkie talkie and OMG/ODDESS, I was correct his name is…….
Now many people would have told me to go talk to him. Well for One I am not that kind of guy, I feel very awkward and I am in a sense “new” to the whole talking to someone you’re interested in experience and I truly am “shy” at first……I know this is because I judge myself so much, remember I am transforming the beliefs of Ancient times past, so it takes time. For two it may not be considered “professional” when working as a background to talk to a crew member. We are given stick instruction to not talk to the actors or take photos…We are all there to do a job and be professional. “Professional” gets me a little confused and nutsy… Heck I probably wasn’t really professional to be staring like I was….hahahahahahaha oi
Thirdly, an almost 20 year relationship of many “labels” had just come to a close and I am so not ready to even begin dating. Let alone think about it, which I have and I have decided to just be with me for however long I need, especially because there is still so much baggage that I am left to untie from moons and suns of ancient past. However it is challenging when there have been so many people “predicting”, I will meet someone who respects, honors and supports me emotionally and I will be in love again….Right now my mindset is on doing this for myself….However the thought of being held, hugged and loved is blissful. That is truly all I ever want LOVE. Don’t we ALL?!?!?!
Anyway back to the experience….So as we are waiting to go on set and throughout the waiting process our gaze was in each others direction. He could have been thinking “OMG this freak is staring at me.” or “OMG is that, that psychic guy” or “He is so unprofessional for gawking at me like that…eeeewwww gross and he is dripping sweat.” And Yes, he could have been thinking “He is cute or HOT.”
It was 90 degrees out and we were in Fall cloths…..also to mention when I am in the zone, I sweat profusely..
So then he come closer by me talking to another crew member, that person leaves and he turns and looks at himself in the car window and starts grooming his hair.
Here I am wondering is he doing that to really check his hair? or is he doing that to check out my butt. Being I was standing right next to him and it was not a quick hair check. So what do I do?
I turn and see him brushing the sides of his hair forward and think to myself…Oh that’s cute…Oh he is so cute…Daved stop…Daved stop.
So then he gets called away and a few moments later is standing diagonally across from me, again catching the glances…Is it him or I? Who knows?
Then he comes over to me….OMG…OMG….OMG…..and says wait for it……wait for it….”Did someone tell you to hold that hoodie or put it on”…uuuuuuuummmmm OMG/OMG?OMG is how I was inside….yet my reply was…Yes, I am to put this on when I get inside over my jean shirt…He replied “Okay cool, I wanted to just check and make sure.”
Then we get called in, do the scene…only two takes….a quick in and out…yet there were some interesting experiences that took place with that however that is another blog for later….Is this even a blog? This story seems like it is going on forever…people have probably stopped reading by now…see how fear works….and here’s how I am transforming those fearful thoughts…Just keep typing…just keep typing and sharing the experience.
So after the scene the van takes us back to holding and I see him walking across the street to what seemed like where he may have been parked and think….Wow he got back here fast, before us and he already got his stuff. How is it we are here at the same time?
I wave to him and say.. ‘have a good night.’ In which he replied “you too”.
I went in get my stuff and walk back to the parking lot a couple blocks down…It took about 10-mins for me to get in the building, out and back down to the parking lot where the van had originally dropped us of at.
As I am walking to my Soul, a car is coming towards me and yes, it’s him driving, I wave….waves as I watch him pass me, he continues to drive what seemed to me ever sooooo slowly…While all the time I wondered “should I say something? What? What do I do?”
I did nothing except wonder…DANG IT!!! I got into my Soul and replayed the experience over and over in my head. From the vision and through all the manifestations….It always trips me out…In a fantabulous way yet none the less sometimes experiences can not fully come to BE out until the next event.
This writing started our speaking about breaking a bowl. So maybe you are wondering what does a bowl have to do with the crew guy or the filming? Well, as I wonder that myself…I come to the answer of… Me foreseeing the bowl and the filming is what inspired me to sit down and embrace the time to write about the experiences and share them on this page.
That bowl breaking had me feeling like I had failed and feeling like I had no purpose…..we managed to keep that bowl in tact for all these years and now I have the choice to keep a cracked bowl that is still functional or to let it go…The past several years have been about letting go…MY WHOLE LIFE has been about letting go….I’m tired of letting go! I’m tired of being left…I’m tired of saying I can’t put up with this….Hence the reason my whole life has been about letting go…When the experience of letting go occurs this does invite the belief of abandonment. It does not feel like LOVE when One feels abandoned nor does it feel like LOVE when One feels like they are abandoning.
In some levels I feel like I abandoned a responsibly of keeping this bowl in tact when I didn’t even but the bowl nor did I pick it out. Yet because it is been in my experience for ten plus years somehow it became my responsibility.
So for now the point of the vision of the bowl breaking got me to embrace time and write about what is within. The vision and the experience of the crew guy…well, I wrote about it and put it out to the Universe, maybe there will be a third meeting and if there is. I commit to talking to him and maybe even asking him out for coffee….maybe that’s to forward….maybe I’ll just ask him if he’s on facebook and if we could connect sometime….Who knows? Right now I set the Intention and commit to speaking with him, if there is a next time.
So if you are reading this….I want to ask you
What are you holding of from?
Is there somewhere you feel as though you are failing in your OWN Soul/Spirit/Human contract?
Truth is nothing is a failure because we are here!!!
Yet what are you hesitant in doing?
What if you did it? What if you didn’t wait? Imagine the possibilities…..and really what’s there to loose?
This is what I help my clients with and I am grateful because they Inspire me.
They Inspire me.
I have clients that were on the brink of divorce that are communicating and have re-ignited LOVE because they are doing the work….they are communicating.
I have clients that were afraid to share their voice and their story and are now published authors.
I have clients that were miserable in there “regular” jobs now living a successful “artistic/creative” career.
They Inspire me because if they CAN DO IT, so CAN I and….
I’ve fought and I fought…trying and trying…..I have been accountable….I have been innovative….I have transformed boundaries…..I’ve given …I accepted….I’ve supported….I’ve asked….I’ve surrendered….I’ve been patient….I’ve been forceful…I’ve backed off….I walked side by side…I’ve observed…I’ve listened….I’ve spoken up….I’ve sat…I moved…I’ve hated….I’ve cried…I’ve laughed….for it all to be coming to this place?!?!
I hung on for life to only be called to let go.
I know time heals and ALL time is of LOVE.
I AM lost in the knowing ALL I see is yet a reflection in what has come to BE.
From this place ALL LOVE sent forth through time and space. Visions of prosperity behold within Unity the story WILL unfold. Hand and Hand within Soul/Spirit/Human we feel the breeze upon our cheek. Pictures of he, she and thee for ALL to SEE, this LOVE that is within side co-created within blessings of So mote it BE.
©Daved Beck – Whisper of LOVE, 2013
YAY….I’m so happy! I knew it was just a matter of time. See that IS the freakin’ challenge it seems to BE this lifetime…How much time is One givith and how much time does One Be with?!?! One is always with, if ever been kissed. The answer within time always brings a rhyme when given a ring One will soon see . Wee…hee…within a heart of glee as all the pieces become seen. This wish will someday come to BE for my Soul/Spirit/Human knows WE CAN co-create this whisper of LOVE to BE.
© Daved Beck, 2013
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